Emotionally Unavailable

I hate buzz words..emotionally unavailable.ugh...it just screams of watching too much sex and the city and like you just want to consider yourself trendy for wanting meaningless sex and refusing to let anybody move in a toothbrush.
except i think maybe i am.....
I've actually had a couple of perfectly good men come into my life recently and I've gotten REALLY good at pushing people away. What does it say about me when a nice normalish grown man being nice to me makes me pout and stomp my feet and go running like hell in the opposite direction?

Who am I to judge?

So a friend of mine gave 40 bucks to a hustler the other night. I don't think this guy qualified as homeless since he was trying to get to his parents' house and was offering up his car as collateral.
Anyway...my friend was feeling generous and gave the guy some cash. It sparked a conversation that went something like "I don't like giving money to people because they'll probably just use it to buy booze or drugs"

really??

I have a job. I have a house. I have a car. pretty much--I have it good...and I drink on a VERY regular basis. If I've got it all that great and I need booze to get through the week who am I to begrudge the guy down on his luck?
I hope he buys booze and drugs! Otherwise I just look like an alcoholic.